Bye Bye

I guess thats it. Enough. Thanks to all.

Helllpppppppp

The Book of Mirdad has been such a hyped book in my mind since I first read about it in an Osho speech. I am not an Osho follower. Rather I hardly agree with him, most of the times. But yes, I admire him as a great orator or writer. The way he churns out sentences is simply superb. And then, he is superhumanly brilliant too. Think of any thing under the sun and he has a different and deep take on that.

It wasn't easy getting a copy of this book. I have been searching almost all the book shops for nearly an year. No one has even heard of it. I tried in different CrossWords, to no use. I even placed an order with them. They called me after a week and said they couldn't get it. I have no idea how to place an order with Amazon.com. Do they accept indian currency? Well, haven't yet tried dealing with them though there are lot many thing I covet in their site.

May be the CrossWords guys got sick and tired of me asking about the same book or they thought of it as a sudden demand for an arcane book by different people, they finally managed to get the book and sent me a copy last week.

I had and still have great expectations on this book. After all, I trust Osho's judgment, for such a voracious reader he is. He says:

"And it is a book to be read by the heart, not by the mind. It is a book not to be understood, but experienced. It is something phenomenal. Millions of people have tried to write books so that they can express the inexpressible, but they have utterly failed. I know only one book, The Book of Mirdad, which has not failed; and if you cannot get to the very essence of it, it will be your failure, not the author's. He has created a perfect device of words, parables, situations. If you allow it, the book becomes alive and something starts happening to your being."

Geeeeeee. I am failing miserably. All I have manged is the first four chapters, three or four pages each. Since I couldn't make out much, I tried reading again. I have repeated the same chapters thrice by now and the so called wisdom of the book still eludes me. Prophet was such an easy read and this is rated above Prophet.

I am almost giving it up. Guess, my brain is really peanut sized as they say ;((( Somebody helllpppppppppppp

frustrated..

How do you know you are a religious fundamentalist and a hopeless fanatic?

When you "think" that you believe in one God but you unknowingly believe in atleast, two - one who created your like minded fanatics and the one who created others.

When you spend all your "life" preparing and waiting for death and after life of a better re-birth.

When you think life is not to be lived but is to be spent waiting for the paradise.

When you think you are the privileged and chosen ones than all others yet talk about values like humility, love and compassion. (!!!!!!!!!!. Yup, that is how they do.)

When you think God is a tyrant who takes pleasure in parting the ones who love and splitting families by making you the "only" privileged one.

When you don’t realize the value of the life you have in hand which is to be celebrated and waste it telling all others who “live” that they are wrong.

When you try to “confine” the omnipotent, omnipresent God into one book or philosophy.

When you try to scare "others" projecting God to throw you into an eternal torment for a mere 70 or 80 years of life on earth, just 'cos they have their own understanding of God, which again they think is God revealed. (And you say God is love??? Your God scares the hell out of me. Devil could be kinder!!!!)

When you “believe” those who have a different opinion on spirituality or doesn’t approve of God or your framework of God are “devil” sent. (Do you guys mean God is not the only Creator, Devil is one too? Interesting !!!!!!!!!)

When you think it is a "master-slave" relationship.

When you think life is nothnig but a pre-coded algorithm. (If you are to dine as per your algorithm, you don't have to move your a**. It will be spoon fed to you by an invisible hand)

This is an endless list and anyone who wants to contribute or contradict is welcome.

PS: The above observations are very much based on personal experience. The author willingly tried to be one of them, yet failed miserably, which forces the disillusioned lass to conclude that she is either a satanic reincarnation or one with a reservation in the Hell. May God show her the light.

"Who wants to go to Heaven? It's full of people who did nothing when they were alive. At least Hell is full of interesting people."
- I don’t remember who said this ;(

confusion

There are two worlds. I belong to both. But being in one precludes the other. And I am struggling to figure out how do make them both meet. In the meanwhile, life moves on. Each moment lost in confusion is lost forever.