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There is a soothing comfort while you walk on the same roads, talk to the same people and celebrate the same festivals. Something that shake you out of the "other" world you belong to.
The farthest you go from home, the strongest is the pull back. The deepest are the emotional attachement - both to people and things. Yet, it is a very remote possibility that you would be able to give in. There are hundreds of other things that keep you away. Sometimes for the rest of your life. The financial burdens, the never ending ambitions etc etc etc.
I wish, one day I will be able to go back, buy a small home there and settle down. But how or when will I cut myself off from where I am now, is a big question mark. How will I let go of a decent pay check, how will I ever be able to live a homely life and how will I be able to give up my longing for the finest things in life. Even if I do, I will be thinking only about myself if I go back leaving everything behind. I have my aging parents to look after, a brother whom I want to free of all responsibilities so that he can go chasing his dreams .......
Home or "naadu" is just a distant dream. Not a goal. May be it is better that way. Had I been staying there, I would never have valued anything.
The farthest you go from home, the strongest is the pull back. The deepest are the emotional attachement - both to people and things. Yet, it is a very remote possibility that you would be able to give in. There are hundreds of other things that keep you away. Sometimes for the rest of your life. The financial burdens, the never ending ambitions etc etc etc.
I wish, one day I will be able to go back, buy a small home there and settle down. But how or when will I cut myself off from where I am now, is a big question mark. How will I let go of a decent pay check, how will I ever be able to live a homely life and how will I be able to give up my longing for the finest things in life. Even if I do, I will be thinking only about myself if I go back leaving everything behind. I have my aging parents to look after, a brother whom I want to free of all responsibilities so that he can go chasing his dreams .......
Home or "naadu" is just a distant dream. Not a goal. May be it is better that way. Had I been staying there, I would never have valued anything.
Labels: confusions
posted by Dew Drops at 3:21 AM
4 Comments:
have I read this somewhere? :)))
Sigh!!! I guess we'll never cease to make certain trade-offs in life.
~AY~
Yesterday while having bubble-bath for the first time in ma life...I had this thought...Im having all this luxury in ma life which I always craved for...if I go back, leave this country...will I get to enjoy like this??
I dont think so...
I wish, one day I will be able to go back, buy a small home there and settle down.
I might get all this for ma parents...
as for me...I'm still not sure whether I really want to go back..
Hmmm....
A decade , away from home, away from family. When ever u do get back home, all u do is wonder why do u feel like a stranger there! Then you get scared and then feel insecure about it, feel that u r better off how u were, alone, and get back to misery willingly!
~KS
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